becoming
pictures i took of the kiddies around santa monica:
so can someone please tell me: is the earth's axis off by a couple of centimeters? out of the million of things that my mind could and should be occupied with at the moment- why have my latest daydreams been related to the day that i will finally bear children and have a family of my own?? what the hee zee? yes, i need to be checked. someone please do so this instant. i remember in elementary school & up until college- i was adamant about not wanting to have kids. So what the hell is going on?
i'm trying to pinpoint the source of this intrepid apparition that's lost in my mind. hmmm...maybe i'm just missing the little bro (gi), or thinking about my god daughter maida?, or wondering how mama geraly's kidzilla 2 is coming together-- or is it shianne's little one kicking inside of her??? who knows?
or maybe i'm just in denial of the fact that i have breasts, a vagina, and hips that are good enough to spit one out myself? now i'm starting to think about how many i want to have, how i intend to raise them, how old i want to be when i have my first (35 by the way) and how if this is becoming a new goal in my life-- how i need to plan my action steps accordingly. funny how my day dreams don't include any sign of a husband (i guess i'll keep the continuation of that thought to myself) and i appear to be a-okay with this absence within my daydreams. hmmmmm...
like, whoa.
am i really thinking about this? and am i really taking the time to write about this, let alone, post it online?
maybe i need to rethink this daydream of mine. but for some reason, it's starting to feel like the empty part of the frame is becoming filled-- the composition is more clear and the colors are crisper.
(mia, don't you dare delete this.)
so can someone please tell me: is the earth's axis off by a couple of centimeters? out of the million of things that my mind could and should be occupied with at the moment- why have my latest daydreams been related to the day that i will finally bear children and have a family of my own?? what the hee zee? yes, i need to be checked. someone please do so this instant. i remember in elementary school & up until college- i was adamant about not wanting to have kids. So what the hell is going on?
i'm trying to pinpoint the source of this intrepid apparition that's lost in my mind. hmmm...maybe i'm just missing the little bro (gi), or thinking about my god daughter maida?, or wondering how mama geraly's kidzilla 2 is coming together-- or is it shianne's little one kicking inside of her??? who knows?
or maybe i'm just in denial of the fact that i have breasts, a vagina, and hips that are good enough to spit one out myself? now i'm starting to think about how many i want to have, how i intend to raise them, how old i want to be when i have my first (35 by the way) and how if this is becoming a new goal in my life-- how i need to plan my action steps accordingly. funny how my day dreams don't include any sign of a husband (i guess i'll keep the continuation of that thought to myself) and i appear to be a-okay with this absence within my daydreams. hmmmmm...
like, whoa.
am i really thinking about this? and am i really taking the time to write about this, let alone, post it online?
maybe i need to rethink this daydream of mine. but for some reason, it's starting to feel like the empty part of the frame is becoming filled-- the composition is more clear and the colors are crisper.
(mia, don't you dare delete this.)
posted by MONKEYfightingSTYLE at 12:50 AM
1 Comments:
you crack me up woman. i've been using "when we have kids" frequently in sentences when talking to mackenzie. but with that of course i also add in, "and thank god i still have 6 years before that happens." i want to have my first child by 35 too. okay, this is bizarre talking to you about this subject. i think mama shy's and her baby's auras are channeling us....
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